Learn

Once or twice I’ve been accused of giving good advice, I can’t imagine why and I can’t remember when it was, but I’m sure it’s happened. What really sucks though is when sometimes you don’t even take your own advice. Then things can suck. I dabbled in some history and got curious, went back to see if there is anymore, got disappointed. The disappointment doesn’t even stem from the original curiosity. And for what I discovered I should be happy, but there is still a tinge of jealousy there. I know there shouldn’t be; I should be happy that all is moving on, but for some reason it bothers me. Well, I can’t say some reason… I know why: ‘cause I’m jealous.
Well… Learn.

Learn. Focus. Move. Learn from the mistake. Focus on the objective. Make the next move.

What do I know though? This isn’t a ‘feel sorry for me’ rant. It’s a reality check. What is it that I Know? I feel that I’m a jack of many trades but a master of none. I need to find what I know, and if I don’t know I need to find what I will know. That last bit may sound like shit to y’all, but it makes sense to me, so I’m sticking with it. I need to find out what my expertise in life shall be. I’m less than a month away from being 25 and I don’t know shit. 25. That’s real adult age. Most others are set by now, some job, some career, some idea. I don’t have an idea; I have a guess at best. Must focus. Direction. Move.

Tomorrow is going to be a long day, I better turn in.

Sleep Funk

Last night I couldn't sleep for crap. I constantly woke up from one weird dream after another. Despite everything going well I guess I'm in one of those funks where I don't sleep well for about a week.

Anyways, here are some bits I found this morning...
Rednecks and Wasillians around the nation may go into a depression soon - Or they better stock up while supplies last.

hmmm... Now N. Korea wants to talk, if only we could figure out what the hell they are talking about.

Alaska makes the national news... How come its only in disasters and odd articles from Alaska?

Just recently I started reading this Blog. She writes well and has some interesting stories posted. Though today I have to suggest any adult over 40 not read that post, especially my parents 'cause I just don't need to think of that.

Porch Blogging

Damn the weather has been great the last two days. It was probably up around 65 today with just a few wisps of clouds. I just got back from the campus where I had a long session with Cristina as I attempted to understand Spanish... Conjugations suck. Right now I'm relaxing on the back porch waiting to put a steak on the BBQ.
Turns out I didn't do nearly as well as I'd hoped on the science test. It was that one question that killed me - 15 pts right there. That just means I'll have to take the final. For the science class we have three test then a final. All test are equal (basically four equal tests). But he only counts the three highest tests... I had an A on the first one, so if I could continue that streak I would be able to skip the final. So I think I'll let this last test be the one that is dropped since I'm sure I'll do better on the rest of the tests. Hopefully some of that makes sense.

Well, sun's about to set and its cooling off, time to head inside.

Finally

Finally the weather gods listened to me! Today was awesome! It got up to 60 degrees with hardly a cloud in the sky by late afternoon. Tomorrow is suppose to be even better!

Also, I’m starting a short story. I can’t promise it’ll be any good, but I’ve wanted to write a short story for a while, so I’m going to make a go at it. I have a rough idea of how the story will go, but I need a name for the main character. All I know about him so far is that he is a guy. And I need a name for his wife. She is a gal. Yeah, I’m doing great with this story so far.

And I’m frustrated with Spanish. When I get frustrated I come up with stupid ideas. For example: Since they are all coming to America they should all learn English, then I wouldn’t have to learn Spanish. In my frustrated state it all makes sense.

Rain

Living in San Diego you come to appreciate a good rain fall. It is just cool to see a good down poor. When I moved out here to Pennsylvania I saw it rain harder than I’ve ever seen in my life and it was awesome. I really like it when it rains, just something about it. Until today. I’m sick and tired of this rain crap. It needs to quit this drizzle crap. Gives us a good down poor then go away, get sunny and get warm.

UPDATE: I woke up this morning, looked outside and saw some blue sky. Great, things look better. Then I check weather.com just to see how long it'll last. They have a damn flood warning up right now. Not yesterday when it was raining non-stop, but this morning while we have some blue skies there is a damn flood warning. WTF? But on the bright side, its not even noon yet and already 51 degrees... tomorrow its suppose to get up to 60 degrees, so it is getting warmer, plus there isn't any more rain in the near future.

grrr....

I woke up this morning feeling like crap, and it just hasn’t gotten much better. I had a couple of bazaar dreams last night.
The first one I can remember was that I went home to visit my folks. The house was redone (they have been redoing and fixing up the house one project at a time now for about four or five years). I had gotten in late at night and my folks had to work the next morning so I was home alone when I woke up, all normal. Except that there were lizards everywhere in the house, all different kinds of lizards all kinds of places, on the floor, on the walls, on furniture... All I could remember my folks telling me was that two of them were poisonous. Now in real life I know that there is only one poisonous lizard, the Gila Monster, and it isn’t even real poison. The Gila Monster just had so much bacteria that it is immune to in its mouth, so if it bites something even if it gets away it now has a horribly infected wound and will die. But in my dream I wasn’t sure which two were poisonous. So I’m tip-toeing around these lizards that are everywhere trying not to get too close to any. Once upstairs I look behind me and I see a lizard slowly working his way up the same stairs, along the way he keeps stopping to eat smaller lizards which I found rather amusing. Oddly that is where that dream ended.
The other dream consisted of me working back at the hotel. I say it was a dream because it wasn’t really a nightmare, but it wasn’t a pleasant dream either. Anyways, I don’t remember much from it, but that I was just going about doing my work getting pissed at some of the guest and so forth…
Those are the only two I can remember though I know there were more that made me sleep like crap.
Then Spanish sucked because Cristina pulled me aside before class even began and was asking me about last weeks homework. Basically I did pretty crappy on it. So since I look like a complete retard in that class she is giving me a chance to correct it and get a better grade.
Last week I asked her about the email signature and so forth; turns out the Spanish people are just really friendly.
I know it sounds like I’m complaining a lot, and I probably am, I just need a good nights sleep and for this headache to go away and all will be better.

Eating Green Things

Some people that know me know that I do not eat green things except for peppers on pizza and salads. The other day I was at the store and bought a bagged salad. Turns out I got a new kind (well, new to me) that had snow peas in it. Turns out they were kind of good. So yesterday at the store I found a package of fresh snow peas. They were kind of expensive, but they are good. So to the amazement of all, I am eating a healthy green thing.
Also on a health note: I consider myself to be a fat lazy ass right now. But the other day I found a scale and it turns out I’m not as fat as I thought. I guess I’m just a lazy ass now. I think a big part of the weight loss was that I quit drinking, so double good…

Website Updates

I just finished uploading some new stuff to the website. The Mt. Suribachi PowerPoint is on the random clutter page. Also, the stadium crash and Hornet/Tomcat video are in the Photo Gallery.